Chapter 20: Tears Of Strength

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Amu looked at him with wide eyes "Kukkai, what are you doing here?...it can't be..."
Then his X egg hovered next to him, his heart had an X on it.
 
"Kukkai..." 
 
Kukkai turned around, the cold wind blew fiercely, it became the only sound of the long pause between them. 
"What's happened to you?" Amu asked
 
Kukkai didn't answer.
 
"Kukkai! What happened to you!?" Amu yelled at him. 
"I've simply finished with all this" Kukkai said 
"What do you mean?" She raised her voice, trying to compete with the wind, attempting to cut her off.
Kukkai raised his voice too, "I've given up. All this is pointless to me now. That house, the place where we all grew up burnt down...because of me even! And Kaidou is gone, that's my fault aswell! And you, I've even lost you too!" 
"No, you never lost me, I'm here right? No matter what you think, I still care. No matter what you've done...I'm still here!" She told him
"Even if you're afraid!?" Kukkai yelled to her
"What do you-" 
"That day..." Kukkai cut her off, "That day, that Ikuto told you everything and you said didn't want to talk anymore, when I went to put my hand on your shoulder...you flinched. The other time aswell, when I got up to leave Ikuto's place, as I walked past you, you flinched!" Kukkai said
"I..." Amu began to say, she knew he was right
"I couldn't believe it..." Kukkai was not finished, "I couldn't believe that I had made you come to fear me. Never would I have thought or wanted you to be afraid...I only wanted to protect you!"
"I know" Amu whispered, trembling.
Kukkai turned back, facing the edge of the building again, 
"but, I've realized something. With all this...It's my fault this has happened, the world would be better without me in it...I'm the reason for all this. I've really...had enough" He said as he walked closer to the edge,
"You're Wrong! Don't think that Kukkai! please, dont do this! I dont care about the past anymore!" She yelled at him whilst taking steps toward him, tears developing in her eyes.
Kukkai got closer to the edge. 
 
"PLEASE KUKKAI!" She screamed at him with tears in her eyes. Amu became to frozen with fear and shock, she shook like a leaf, completely terrified.
Then her worst fear at that moment came into action, Kukkai lifted his foot off and the other one fell with it. 
"NO, KUKKAI!" she screamed, in not even seconds she had grabbed Kukkai's arm, as he was hanging off the Skyscraper. 
So many tears streamed down her face, she could barely see, they had blurred her vision, with a weak voice she said, 
"please...i beg you. please don't let go. please." 
She tried to pull Kukkai up, but wasn't strong enough. At that moment Amu realised that Ran, Miki and Su disappeared. She went pale, completely afraid. Ran, Miki and Su were mysteriously gone and Kukkai's life was in her hands, but even though she wanted it to be easy to save him it really wasn't. 
 
She kept trying to pull him up, but it only seemed to end in both their hands beginning to ache more and more, she tried to grip his arm tighter. Kukkai looked down and the fear of him letting go, made more tears rush down Amu's face, 
"Kukkai...please. PLEASE! don't let go. don't let go. don't let go." She kept repeating as she cried and tried to pull him up, she had wrenched her foot in between the gutter attempting to keep it as some balance.
Their hands were starting to slip and the violent cold wind didn't help them at all. 
 
Then, knowing that his life was in her hands, Amu found strength she never had and just barely managed to pull him up.
He was flung backwards, away from the edge and Amu turned in his direction and hugged him.  They both went on their knees, with Kukkai's hands at his sides he put his head on Amu's shoulder. 
 
"Kukkai, it's okay...to cry" Amu whispered, tears going down her face. Kukkai bit his lip. 
"Crying...doesn't mean we're weak, it means we're strong enough to face our mistakes and move forward" She continued, "You've been through alot, Kukkai. And you've had to face it all alone" 
Kukkai bit his lip harder and tears streamed across his face.